Saturday, October 25, 2008

Here's to Inspiration

I can't stop typing,
Writing my thoughts onto this blank screen.
As the words and the symbols pour out what I've seen,
I feel my heart open like I've never foreseen.
I owe it to you for pondering aloud
Questions and comments your heart has found.

I type these words,
Writing all day and all night.
A deep breath I take, for there’s just one more thought I need to write.
Even after that my heart still aches, since I’m not sure if the words are just right.

I owe it to you for taking a moment to listen,
For now I can see my thoughts do glisten.


New Face, Same Name

So....copy and paste, eh?

Not that I would go so far as to place blame or anything [she says, with a raised eye-brow] BUT Tammie erased everything on my blog...all except for my posts.
It's all I have to say...

Well, I'm partially to blame,in that I wanted to change the face of my blog. I thought it a good idea,since it's been six months of having my first blog- ever, and I thought maybe I'd actually change the face of it. The things is I just can't be asked to change something that isn't broke. That, and I'm too much of a lazy perfectionist for that sort of shenanigan. Besides, I don't have the first clue as to how I should transfer everything...or if you actually transfer information.

In any event, when I mentioned my plans to Tammie she practically squealed with glee as she offered to help by showing me some new backgrounds she found. "I promise everything will remain the same, so don't panic", she says, knowing how much I hate spending hours on my computer trying to 'fix' something that won't even look like I did much.

As we're on the computer, logged onto my blog site, she continues to assuage my lack of confidence. Not a lack of confidence in her technological abilities, but that of this cut and paste scenario. She says: "It's easy. All you have to do is cut and paste, and it'll save everything you have."

We move along the pages on this template site and we're about to 'try on' a new background. I find a nice one that I think I would enjoy and Tam maneuvers the mouse over and does the deed. She right clicks it to select the paste option...and all that remains are my posts. I could almost here the crickets playing in the background as silence fills the air. No sign of 'links' that I added, nor 'friends who blog'...nothing. (sigh) The words "I'm so sorry" must of been repeated a dozen times thereafter. To be fair I did ask for a change, and now I got it.

*Duly note- when change comes expect EVERYTHING to be different in its wake. Either that, or just don't change- but where's the fun in that?

....needless to say,
in the next few days expect sudden changes, for a new face to my blog will surface.
{Tam- don't feel guilty- it's all in good fun. If anything I still love ya! :) }


Tuesday, October 21, 2008

That Was Fun- let's not do it again.

Yesterday afternoon, Tamaram and I went to run some errands together, one of which was to get my already notarized police clearance notarized again by a lawyer. As I searched to find a free parking area, Tammie kindly reminds me that there's a parking garage where the first two hours are free. Naturally, I headed in the direction and found the parking garage she spoke of. I drove up to the ticket dispenser with this big boxy, tipsy twelve year old van, pushed the big green button that ever so quickly dispensed my parking ticket, and made my way in- safely.


On the second level, after making it in safely again, I noticed there were still no places to park the beast; "Damn, it's busy as hell in here. I'll need to go up a level." I said, peering over the steering wheel, as I try and stretch my head around the corner of the windshield to see if any pedestrians were coming up the 'exit' ramp. I made it alright thus far, so there was no concern or even a thought in my mind that there wouldn't be any clearance space. Until, I got to the ramp of the third level, and that's when I heard a big smash soon followed by a few scraping noises. That was only the bottom of the ramp there still was the top part of the ramp, remember. Silence fills the air as I clinch the steering wheel and prepare for the worse- yup I kept going. To be fair, I am not even sure if there even was a sound on the top part of the ramp. Perhaps it's best that I try not to recollect my steps of stupidity.
I step out onto the already broken side rail of the parked car to take a gander at the damage done. I rub the now bent roof rack and duly note; "Huh, Yeah. So I guess it wasn't clear after all." I stepped down from the side rail and grabbed my things and started walking away. "Ah, never mind- no use worrying about it now. Doesn't seem like much damage was done, so let's get our things done." I said walking away from the van, as I glanced over at it one more time.



On our way out, I actually thought for a moment, considering that the van had already been bashed in, there might be an off chance that I just might make it down better than the last time going up. No, no. That.. was not the case. In fact, it tore more off the second time around than it had coming in. Now, mind you there was a roof rack, you see, and in my defense if it wasn't there none of these shenanigans would have occurred. In my opinion.


Also, I think it adds character to this already 12year old van. I mean, it's not like I added any more rust than it had before driving up the ramp. In fact, I didn't even take any paint off, just a few scrapes on the old rack...and part of the plastic came off, too. It's nothing that can't be fixed.


I do feel awful too. I mean my parents did lend me the vehicle, but let me just say this, I was a little shook by this dilemma. I told the guy who took my ticket that his levels weren't all the same- he just stared at me with a blank look. Then moments later, he mumbles something and just burst out with laughter. I too burst out with laughter, but I think it was because I was still distraught.


I any case, after having done all our errands Tammie and I decide to go for a walk at a nearby boat launch. I'm so glad we did. We had a great laugh. Tam stepped out of the van and walked up to the edge next to the boat launch, and she pondered over the depth of the drop off. With nothing being said, I came over with a giant rock and just let it fall directly in front of her...more or less for shits and giggles, really. Then she proceed, for some unknown reason, to do the same and threw rocks into the lake. We grabbed a couple more rocks and threw them in, as we stood in silence we watched the circle patterns disappear onto the lake.


At this point it started to drizzle a little outside, and I began to look for good stones to skip with. I found several and began skipping rocks onto the lake. Clearly it was the thing to do. Tam found several good stones and she skipped a few really well. We got so into skipping rocks we mutually had begun to make a game out of it. I am not the greatest at skipping rocks, but I ended up getting 3 skips, twice in a row and another at some point down the line. Tam caught up to my 3skips a couple of times, but nothing in a row.
Instead, she just lobs this rock, and half way through her through it seemed as though she gave up on the fact that it might actually skip. It turns out this rock skipped 4times- the last one was a beauty strictly for the fact that it barely hit the four, but it did. It was awesome. I know it sounds a tad bit trivial perhaps, but it was a great time and it helped me get my mind off the van...well, at least for a while.



We must have spent a good 30minutes out in the rain and before you knew it the rain started to fall a little harder. We decided that perhaps it was time we head back to hers and get dried off. We get into the van, but once I tried to start it it didn't want to start. The engine didn't even want to turn over. I just stayed sat in the van and sighed. "Since this old beast leaks gas, I wonder if everything else is okay." As I put my mechanical head on, I popped the hood to take a gander at all the fluids inside. "Yup. Just what I thought. Nothing. Humm what can it be?"

Now mind you, by the time we're out, correction- I am out checking the fluids in the van it's just pouring rain. "Fuckin' Hell! Now we have to walk in this rain." After fifteen to twenty minutes a sense of defiance grew the more we thought about having to walk o
ut in the pouring rain, nonetheless.

I pivot my body over to face the steering wheel, and, for some reason or another I get this inkling to try and start it one last time. Perhaps it was purely in hopes that maybe this whole time sat here the van magically would have fixed itself, and then magically start up. So, I put the key in and turn the ignition, and- voila! "It worked." Tam exclaims in full glee, "It knew we were leaving it, the old thing couldn't take being alone in the middle of nowhere." she adds.

Right, I thought. That was the strangest thing..ah never mind.



P.S. ...like I said, dad, I think the transmission is going on the ol' van. Oh! And, the rack is bent. Other than that, everything else is in working order- that I know of.



Saturday, October 18, 2008

Leave the Leaves to Us!

Good times had by all.
On this beautiful and bright sunny Saturday I helped raked the leaves at the Ross'.

After a few hours of hard work, I decide it was time for a well deserved break...and jumping in the leaves was the first thing that sprung to my mind.




All the leaves are lifted into the air, and the smile on Ky's face was as big and bright as the sun!


He thought it was the funniest thing in the world!


So did I.


Monday, October 13, 2008

Happy Thanksgiving!

I would like to say a great happy thanksgiving to all as we celebrate an appreciation for all things in our life.

This year I went up to visit my folks in the small town I used to reside in many moons ago. It was quite lovely this time around, as I got to help work on the house and do something productive. Although I never done it before, but I got to cock the window sill on the outside on the front window of the house. It was actually relaxing- oddly enough. I got to tear off the old and bring in the new, the result in the cycle of seasons, physically and emotionally.

Fall is a great time to give thanks for the summer and spring seasons that have past no matter how great or awful it may have gone. It's a time to hibernate our actions and to sit still for a moment to re-examine if you will, or to plan a devise for the following time/season.

I ended up packing up some things I would need for when I move across the world, and stumbled upon this journal book I bought a while back. Although I have used it on a few occasions I forgot that I even had it. I sat with my mom and showed her how this 'sojourn journal' dice system worked. The dice that are included are filled with words and when you role them they give you a set of words to cue you on what to write about. Essentially, it gives you focus and helps with writers block.

There is one brown-coloured dice represents the main idea of your entry, and seven ivory-coloured dice represents the subcategories so to speak. You're suppose to choose 3 of them and run with it basically; however, because I only had the dice and couldn't remember exactly how the 'rules' went, my mom and I ended up choosing 4 words- I just do it however I deem comfortable. Heck I should do one with all seven...or maybe challenge a certain someone. Humm...

Of course you can use any form of writing you desire, and I had my mom and I write whatever we felt after each having rolled the dice.


My mom's main category was 'family' and her subcategories were people, gift, chance and goal. She wrote:

Having a family is a real gift,
Family gives people a chance to set out different set of life goals,
While others pursue other avenues.


My main category was 'play' and my subcategories were passion, people, sense and time. I wrote:

When people find the time to play
And really enjoy the moment-
They will lose their sense of time,
and gain pure moments of passion.


Also, using the same words I attempted to write a continuous haiku- the latter is an inspiration from another...


Grinding your teeth while
Clenching your jaw tightly and
Breathing in slowly.

Your 'play-clock' ticks loud!
People in a jesting mood
Just like you and me,
They are out there, you will see.
Each of our growing
Passions for the world blossoms
Every time we meet.

Feed your sense to Play!



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Wednesday, October 8, 2008

The Oath

"In the face of adversity, uncertainty and conflicting sensory information, I hereby pledge to remain ever mindful of the magical, infinite loving reality I live in. A reality that conspires tirelessly in my favor. I further recognize, that living with space and time, as a Creation amongst my Creations, is the ultimate Adventure, because thoughts become things, dreams come true, and all things remain forever possible. As a Being of Light, I hereby resolve to live, love and be happy, at all costs, no matter what, with reverence and kindness for All. So be it!"

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Tuesday, October 7, 2008

A Camping Trip to Soothe The Soul

My greatest friend Tammie decided that once I was home what I truly needed was a good camping trip to acknowledge my roots and simply relax. In the trees I find my home, in the grass I find my bed, and as I glance onto the lake I see freedom of a different kind.

Tammie and I both purchased a new camera this year; however, they are of a different make and model. Regardless, we had fun exploring each of them, and so here are some of the many pictures taken over the couple days spent at her partner's parents' cottage.

Tammie, thanks for helping me find serenity when I forget to take the time for me- it was fun to laugh, sing and dance like nobody was watching! Oh yeah, and how could I forget- our game of hide and seek!




Thank you again Tammie for such a wonderful thought!

The Day After My Arrival Into Canada

The day after my arrival into Canada and I suddenly realized the little moments that I missed while I was away, but have never forgotten.
In no particular order here are just a few things I missed while I was away. Take for granted there are many people that are not photographed that were deeply missed as well; namely my brother Patrick& his son Holden; also my surrogate family, Mama Ross, Meesh, Nanny, Steph, Kylan, and Brett.
Love you all and glad to be back...for a little while.