July: A Moment In Hindsight

I chose this quote because sometimes we think that other people, or things (ie family, friend, significant other, a great job, or home etc) that we find comfortable in our lives are those who or what prevent us to venture out and take the long awaited walks onto unbeaten paths. Yet, all the meanwhile it is but our own perspectives that keeps us from meandering along the wildest frontiers. Perception is reality and the only thing that can take you as far as you allow it to. Let your imagination soar to great heights, and meander afar towards your wildest fantasies friends!

"The greatest enemy of individual freedom is the individual himself."

-- Author: Saul Alinsky 1909-1972, American Radical Activist

Technically Demoted

In the classroom of 2-3 year olds I have been supporting three children with special needs. Today I have received word that I will lose a child that I have been working with for the last three weeks. This loss is due to the fact that there's a lack of financial support for the parents of this particular child. Unfortunately, I am not working in a very stable area and the **school itself is a diamond in a rough, so to speak. (I can't imagine how much a bran new school would cost parents) The news is quite sad for both the parents and I. Asides from the fact that I will lose more than half my pay cut their child needs nuturing in every sense of the word. Now the child will no longer have proper education for an entire month. I know that may seem unjustified at the moment, but to futher explain. A child should not have this much time off, especially if there is no edcuation being done at home. This happens far too often I'm afraid. If I could only explain to the parents and to the administration department how much progress he has made in a months time as oppose to where he was when we originally started they would do anything in their right mind to have him stay. F*&K the corporate world! Why does education, especially this early in life should have to suffer because they don't have access to proper education.
A month of absence is sacrificial in this stage of life, and I have been working quite diligently with this child- now it has all gone to waste. This child will regress to his original state to when I had first met him, if not further more. I am not trying to sound like a Martyr, but this child knows me and really listens to me, as I have . When you're curious about something you begin to see the light, or when you're curious about someone's behaviour most of the time they recognize it. It's all you need is that small string of hope- once they recognize that you have curiosity about them that is the key. From that point on you just observe and follow through. Although my job is not lost, for I still have two of the three children I support. However, it's murder! I have no other way of getting more work to fill the afternoons and I am barely making ends meet to pay rent, let alone utilities or food.

What has the world come to? What does this Agency really expect from me?
Duly noted: support staff and nursery nurse assistance are not well to do people, and they all say they do it for the children. It's true, but at the end of the day you have to see where you stand and how it affects your life in the bigger picture. I need to survive on my own, and create a comfortable life for myself.

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** The school is newly built since November of 2007. They spent 6.5million on building it.Although the school is esthetically pleasing there are so many downfalls to it. First, the windows are automated- meaning if the temperature is too hot the windows open. Even when the school is not open- ie a holiday. This leaves room for perpetrators to figure out a way to climb the roof tops and jam the windows open and steel computers. As they did- three of them to be exact. Also, the lighting fixtures are overly priced to replace and are not replaced on a regular basis because of this dilemma. These are merely the insignificant qualms that the school has. Of course the common political background that is further perpetuated by the school principal, the school is separate from the nursery. The nursery nurses are looked down upon; furthermore so are the agency workers- especially if they are not British.

A Few Random Pics Around Bristol

Hold On To Your Faith- Cheers! By Kim Devine

Nobody said life was easy, and knowing where you going is never a for sure thing. Things have their ups and downs, and the downs may be lower than you ever thought. It's at these times we can sit back and realize to do the proverbial 'step back and take a look from the outside looking in to see that things are meant to be'.
Cheers to you all!

For the Music Lover In You

#1 Come Together - Sungha Jung


#2 Alex DePue -Michael Jackson on violin

June: A Moment In Hindsight

"Square your shoulders to the world, be not the kind to quit; It's not the load that weighs you down but the way that you carry it."
--Unknown.

Dare to be all that you can be

Never give up on what you think is impossible, because there is nothing that is impossible.

It is Neither Here Nor There

I recently was told that my big move is due to the fact that I have lost myself in more ways that I can imagine. They said to me that I am traveling now to find who I am and what I ought to become in this life. I was bewildered that this person whom I felt such a strong connection with would think this of me. You can imagine how painful it was to hear that this person who loves me so dearly would think that my traveling was to confront my own demons and to escape the realities of my life in Canada. What hurt most was when this person told me that I follow not my mind, but think too much with my heart. It broke my spirit but for moment, for I realized it took me years to practice thinking with my heart rather than with my head, and I am proud in doing so. When you follow your heart true logic and reason will manifest itself. It's not always easy to follow your intuition; especially when logic and reason relates an opposing message.

Friends and family were a little hurt and stunned that I was going to a destination so far away, but they knew that traveling is a part of who I am. They knew as much as I did that I wanted to travel only to rejoice in the glory of being. Being an individual. An individual who is struck by the beauty of the world and who wants to explore it through the realms of education. Education that brings light to the power of the source we call Life. Life as I see it is but a journey to explore ourselves on a daily basis and to seek a more profound thought of who we are and where we ought to be in the present moment. I did not lose myself, but have gained another piece of myself. I also have found that who I am is neither here nor there, for we cannot not live too much in the past, nor live too much into the future. Time is fluid. Time is but what we make it, and Life is about not always knowing what will come next.

This message is not to announce that I know who I am, because we never truly know who we are. So I leave you with a quote that may elucidate the message I intend to communicate.
Yours truly EarthBound

"Honor Uncertainty. It's the Seed from which all Knowledge comes. Give it Time." Unknown

Being Me

Canada Day

I would like to take this opportunity to say thanks to my fellow Canadian Friend.

She is my light, my hope and my fears. I miss her so very much. Star Child I will see you again soon.




Star light, star bright may you shine like no other,
Show me the way to our earth mother.
In the deepest darkest night when all seems to be nothing but gloom,
She finds the light over the never ending coombe.

Star light, star bright may you shine like no other,
Show me the way to our earth mother.
She taught me to dance, laugh, and play in all her glory;
As she says; "This is how all shall feel, for happiness on earth ought to be made mandatory.

We shall learn from our mistakes, and take with us our pain,
And let's not forget that our troubles and our losses become our personal gain"
Star light, star bright may you shine like no other,
Show me the way to our earth mother.

EarthBound

What I Have Learned

From email — August 30, 2000

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I’ve learned—
that we don’t have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

I’ve learned—
that no matter how good a friend is, they’re going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I’ve learned—
that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance.
Same goes for true love.

I’ve learned—
that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I’ve learned—
that it’s taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I’ve learned—
that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I’ve learned—
that you can keep going long after you think you can’t.

I’ve learned—
that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I’ve learned—
that either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I’ve learned—
that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.

I’ve learned—
that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I’ve learned—
that money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I’ve learned—
that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

I’ve learned—
that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you’re down, will be the ones to help you get back up.

I’ve learned—
that sometimes when I’m angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn’t give me the right to be cruel.

I’ve learned—
that just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have.

I’ve learned—
that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you’ve had and what you’ve learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you’ve celebrated.

I’ve learned—
that it isn’t always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I’ve learned—
that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn’t stop for your grief.

I’ve learned—
that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I’ve learned—
that just because two people argue, it doesn’t mean they don’t love each other.
And just because they don’t argue, it doesn’t mean they do.

I’ve learned—
that you shouldn’t be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.

I’ve learned—
that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.

I’ve learned—
that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don’t even know you.

I’ve learned—
that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.

I’ve learned—
that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I’ve learned—
that the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.